These TMS stories are testimonials from our real patients who have received TMS therapy for depression from SoCal TMS. TMS therapy is a non-invasive, effective, outpatient treatment for depression; performed in a doctor’s office or clinic. Major Depression is a serious medical illness affecting more than 14 million American adults every year.
Every day was a battle. To get out of bed, get a shower and get dressed. Things that other people do with ease. Thoughts of being worthless and life being dull. I would think not living is so much easier than living with my depression. Every day I would have to somehow convince myself that it will get better.
I wouldn’t say I’m cured by any means. Things are easier, I thought I can get out of bed without having a pep talk and no thoughts of suicide which is abnormal for me now that I have more control. I don’t feel hopeless.”
I thought I was living as everyone did. I mean, I knew I was depressed but I didn’t really know what that meant. I would spend days in bed. I would pick fights because I felt like things were going poorly. I had lost hope and I didn’t even know it.
Now I feel like a different version of myself. I can tell a bad situation from a good one and turn away from it without feeling like a failure. I get out of the house. I get excited. I feel amazing and I can’t believe that this happiness was missing my entire life.”
Prior to starting TMS treatment, I had absolutely no energy to do simple everyday tasks, such as going to the grocery store or running errands. I isolated myself from friends, family, and preferred not to engage in social activities. I was apathetic about life. I had bouts of fear, anxiety, negative thoughts and felt hopeless about finding joy.
After TMS, I now have a lot more energy to do the things that I enjoy now. My life has happiness, meaning, and a sense of fulfillment. I’m not isolating from others, instead I’m embracing the fullness of life. You don’t have to suffer alone. Try TMS to help liberate you from the pain of depression.”
Before TMS therapy, I was very depressed. Felt hopeless with no energy. No motivation to do anything and did not enjoy any activities. Always in a fog. It was so difficult to concentrate. I had a very hard time making a simple grocery list and I cried all the time. I remember wishing I was dead instead.
Now I feel great! Very happy, alive, with tons of energy. I can also focus, make decisions and overall very productive. I’m making plans again, spending time with family and friends. Truly enjoying life. What also was a tremendous help in my recovery were the amazing techs.”
I was frustrated and starting to feel hopeless about finding a way out of depression. I had really low energy and a lot of irritability to the point that it started affecting my most important relationships.
Now, I feel more able to live in the present and to appreciate the good parts of my life rather than fixating on the negative ones. My emotions are much more stable now and I’m not constantly awaiting the next mood swing.
Besides the clinical effects of treatment I feel like the warm and caring environment provided by Paula and Yesenia helped my mood lift. They made me feel safe and comfortable throughout the entirety of my treatment journey.”
Before TMS, every day I thought of death. Waking up was a pure disappointment. I had several suicide attempts in the past years and had also some at 12 and 16. My life was always surrounded by a deep, dark cloud I could not see or explain. I’m married to a wonderful man, have 3 healthy children while not wealthy, we are comfortable. There would be no reason in reality to feel this way – but I had all my life.
After TMS therapy, it’s as if someone took the dark cloud away and switched on a beautiful light. I’m still progressing every day. Suicidal thoughts are gone and I actually have hope for the first time in my life. My family is blown away by the change and I know this is my life’s greatest blessing. Without TMS (Joann, Dr. D. Elian, Stephanie, Chris and Yesenia) I’d still be in that deep dark pit with no escape and still constantly thinking of suicide. TMS has saved my life and that is not an understatement.”
I’m a skeptic when it comes to my depression. I personally feel this is very much warranted considering my 10+ year long adventure with failed treatment. While therapy, books, in-patient treatment, etc. have helped me cognitively, the suffocating mental and physical side effects of my depression remained untouched. I found this especially frustrating, because I felt “too smart” and “too aware” to be dealing with the mundanity of such a “waste of time” mental illness. My life had become nearly unlivable and I finally reached a place where I truly could not see a future for myself. It was then that, at the advice of my trusted therapist, I finally agreed to give TMS a try. I truly felt it would be a colossal waste of time, but my desperation led me to say yes.
I entered my first appointment with the doctor in a state of grey, hardly able to keep my eyes open and on the verge of tears. I had a hard time leaving the house, was incapable of completing any task that required thought, and could only ever plan up to 12 hours in advance. I was truly surviving on coffee and my therapist’s endless optimism and promise that healing WAS possible for me.
Today, about a week out from my final TMS appointment and currently traveling across the country to visit a friend, I am getting a little teary-eyed thinking about the gratitude I feel for SoCal TMS. (And I am not a mushy person, I assure you.) Listen, life is not all rainbows and butterflies now. I do not feel like “a whole new person.” But I finally feel like myself again. Yes, I struggle and still deal with anxiety and PTSD. However, I am now able to take every day in stride. The future exists. I am applying for grad school and reading and writing again. I can go out for dinner with my partner and my friends and don’t spend the entire time wanting to be back in bed (and can schedule it days in advance!). I am happy. And if you would’ve told me 2 months ago that there was a future where I could say that and genuinely mean it, I would’ve patted you on the head and said “Ok, dear.”
TMS gave me my life back. And for that, I am endlessly grateful.
THANK YOU!!! Thank you for giving me my life back!
I, like most people that come here had tried literally everything. Every medication, every meditation class, every alternative meds, etc. Nothing worked. I felt like even more of a failure when I would go to therapy or read a book or try and new med. I felt too broken to be. “fixed”. Finally, I hit rock bottom and made the call. I had put it off for months because I was fearful of a magnetic electric shock scared me! That’s sounded like a science fiction movie and almost barbaric! It wasn’t until I truly felt I was at the end of my rope that I started my TMS journey. I wish I had done it YEARS ago!!!
The treatment is very benign as far as any “pain”. Frankly, it’s a minor and I mean very minor pulse that is was so not a big deal. After a few treatments I barely noticed it. Just sit back, watch a funny show or something relaxing on tv and enjoy. Or better yet, talk with the techs!
That brings me to the part about I want to gush about! How amazing the staff is here! Dr. D is such a gentle and inspiring man with a calmness and a confidence in TMS that you felt empowered after speaking to him. His encouragement throughout the treatment was so beneficial to navigating me through this entire experience! The majority of your treatments will be the techs you work with. They are the heart and soul of TMS. Every single one of them were awesome! They made me feel at home and calmed any fears I had during the actual treatments. I can honestly say that I woke up everyday looking forward to coming to see them!
Also, I was a “robust responder” I was told. I was feeling like a different person by the end of the first week and here today after my entire treatment course, my life has never felt more exciting and hopeful for the future! I can’t believe just a few short weeks ago I started this journey feeling absolutely miserable and didn’t want to get out of bed. I stand here today, empowered and exhilarated! Please please please, do yourself a favor and start your journey immediately! You will have no regrets. Just a completely new sense of freedom and the veil of depression and anxiety lifted. Again, thank you to everyone at So Cal TMS, for being a part of this miraculous journey!