October 11, 2011: This is the day before I start the TMS program. I am a little nervous…but I am determined to do whatever it takes. .. My mind went crazy with all kinds of negative thoughts, like something will happen to prevent the treatment, my car won’t start, I won’t be able to find the office. I realized that maybe I am so used to being depressed maybe my mind is just playing out the negative.
October 25, 2011 : Last night I slept for a little over 7 hours, this has not happened in well over 25 years. No matter what meds I took the most that I was able to sleep was 4 to 5 hours. It is my goal to sleep without meds and soon I will be starting a very slow taper of the xanax from 1 miligram a night to zero.
October 28, 2011 : Finished second week of TMS. Everybody who knows me is asking what did I do to end the depression and when I tell them several people have approached me wanting to go with me to see if it will work for them.
November 1, 2011: I am continuing to improve daily. I just can’t wait to get going in the morning.”